Sunday, April 20, 2014

Organized Chaos


One of my dear friends recently explained to me that inside my head is chaos. I have thoughts that float around with no real organization or order. Its basically like a room of loose paper with all the windows open, three fans turned to full blast... during a tornado. That is the reason why notebooks and to-do lists are imperative to my survival. To create order and maintain my sanity, I must scout out these ideas that fight for free reign in my head. I sneak up behind them and catch them by transcribing them on to paper, then my mind becomes slightly clearer. These ideas, thoughts, and worries can occur at any time, so you will rarely find me without a notebook and a writing utensil.

This has been the scenario in my head this week... except add a heard of wild geese to that room of chaotic papers! We were able to escape to Tennessee with the house perfectly intact and all our bags packed (a feat that truly deserves an award, as doing any task with a curious toddler is a miracle in itself). Everything has been crossed off my to-do lists and we have 4 days in Tennessee with my parents before our flight to Europe. So I should be calm and relaxed right?

Unfortunately, I can't turn my mind off. Every time I close my eyes I think of errands I need to run or things I need to pack... but as soon as I come back to a rational reality I realize everything is already done. I'm having nightmare day dreams? Is that a thing?

I can handle my life!


  1. I love this post. You are an inspiration to the rest of us. Everyone should do more things that stress us out because thats how we grow. You are going to have so many fun adventures. I can't wait to read future post about them.

  2. We are so similar, my dear! I operate the same way -- wish I could shut it off but it's so hard. That's why I'm also constantly making lists -- trying to get it all on paper and out of my head. Hope the chaos subsides soon! :)